an ode to your mistake

Before You

i thought i knew about all the monsters under my bed 

playing deceit on my mind

of shadows lurking, witches bewitching.

The sacred unknown territory forbidden for good girls like me

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With you

Pretty smile, piercing gaze,

butterflies and soft touches

retracing every crack in my skin

trying to relive my past.

Because even the devil feels like love

especially when he wants to fix you.

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After you

He looked like heaven

felt like hell.

No amount of pills 

will ever make you

feel as alive the way he did.

And that's when you know you are fucked

because  the places he fixed

have split open again